I've been down a lonely street tonight...

I don't know what's wrong with me...

I don't know what's wrong with me...

This is the song I am listening to right now...It's called "Dublin Sky" and it's such an amazing piece of music... Actually, I'd say it's more than music. It's a master piece. At first, I couldn't listen to this song and, obviously not because I don't like it, but because it was too painful to listen to. It is so sincere that it hurts. It really hurts. So, I had to skip this song when I listened to the cd because I knew that if the first note of "Dublin Sky" came on I would start crying.

I've started a new phase in my life and I am not sure where is this going to take me. I cannot believe I got myself into something that I was so scared of. Sometimes I find myself thinking why am I putting myself through this and just want to give it up... I guess I cannot go back now. I've spent way too much money and have been through a very long emotional proccess to convince myself I am capable of doing this. And if I take this to the end it's only because of that: I don't want to throw away all these last months of emotinal grow and more maturity. Though, I still am not sure if I am strong enough to do this.

Life has made me feel a little miserable... And as someone said on the tagboard, there are people who feel worst than me... I know that. I also know I should be thankful for having a family (although it's far away from being perfect) and for having a place I can call home. I haven't had experiences of extreme physical pain in my life but I've had a lot of emotional pain. I've been through quite a lot of experiences that made me the human being I am today and I cannot express how hard the last year has been...

I guess I'll have to wait and see where life is taking me...

God Bless everyone.

Love,

Purplexxx

p.s.-I wanna thank everyone who has left a message on my Journal. I think it's amazing that someone would take interest in my life. Thank you.